I've been struggling with approving myself for a long time. I've always thought that 'yh I'm prettyISH. kinda.' But never have I seen myself gorgeous.
I've basicly been through it all: Eating disorders, low self-esteem.. I think that in our society you can't consider urself beautiful, unless you're a moviestar. But has someone said that fame makes u perfect? Nope. And it doesn't. It's such a shame that there are SO many pretty girls letting life pass them by, because they don't see the reality. I have so many extremely beautiful friends and I hope they know it. ♥
Btw. a little tip for some girls: Being half naked doesn't make you beautiful. Confidence does. Whatever you're wearing, even if u're in your wellies and an awesomely gorgeous girl in her heels passes u by, you should just rock those wellies. Maybe today was her day, when she felt awesome and let it show, but we all have those days. And maybe tomorrow it's your turn to turn heads! (and at least ur toes will be dry!)
Today I was really positively surprised, when I was having a video call with a dear guy-friend on Skype and I was in my PJ's with not much makeup and all, doing 'The Duckface' for no reason.. and He actually told me I looked hot. AND that I've grown from a girl into a woman (we haven't seen each other in 1,5 yrs (but my boobs haven't grown..)) and as I got surprised he said carelessly "don't worry, it's definitely a good thing." The thing that really makes me happy is that this boy would've honestly told it to my face, if I would've looked like crap. We can talk about anything. We even have this thing that we link each other pictures of hot people and tell our honest opinions.
His comment on My Personal Icon and "OH WHY DON'T I LOOK LIKE HER?" -
..."I'm actually not that impressed"
Well I guess the beauty is in the eye of the beholder. But until my confidence is strong enough to have me standing my head up high, I will still be my own winy 'fat in these pants/that dress' too pale little whale- self and look up to gorgeous models like Erin.
PS: confident doesn't mean cocky! So get ur head off ur ass! My dad always says: "if ur okay with urself, you should be okay with other people too!"
Love, (still dreaming of a nose surgery tho...) T. xx